for my handsome fatsy

hello

baby i know uve been stressed up with alot of things recently.i am stressed up with my own stuffs too-tuitions, assignments, video lectures.. but its okay, cos we can always encourage each other.i can do away with the comforting hugs and kisses for now.you can owe me first & pay back when i see you in december. :D
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your absence makes me miss you alot and think about why i love you so much :) everytime a funny idea pops up in my head, ure the first person that i wanna tell & everytime when someone pisses me off, i just wanna shout at you and tell you how angry i am. & then ill imagine you laughing at me and calling me silly, like you always do.
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i love you alot and i wanna see your face so much. explore as much as you can while ure in the states and have alot alot of fun making friends. im here waiting for you to come home. i love you fatsy :)

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baby, yesterday night when i whatsapp with you i cried. i miss you so much :(

no one to comfort me when i come home tired from tuitions :( no one to wake me up and then ask me to go back to sleep again.

i dont like....

fml

forgot to tell you something funny.

today i tied my hair for tuition, my stupid student said "teacher today you look like botak"

wtf. i only tie the back of my hair leh. idiotic ungrateful punk.

bo liao talk

hello baby

actually i have nothing much to type here because i can get to skype with you twice a day

but since you requested for me to blog then fine, ill find some rubbish to say

you know,yesterday i went cheer, then they celebrate one girl's birthday for her.i was quite unhappy inside my heart.cos HELLO, my birthday just passed leh. Y I NO HAVE CELEBRATION TOO? zzz....okay lor.nvm..

& whenever my brain is very free, i will keep thinking about my winter fashion. i cannot believe it leh. i have never expected myself to go US so soon. i always thot it is very far away from me & i can only go when im richer. i feel so lucky and happy to be able to go there! & i cant stop thinking about my korean winter fashion hahaha.

baby, i know it is very hard to study in purdue but dont give yourself too much stress. i have alot of confidence in you, so just take a deep breath and relax! & keep cursing yourself like a hypocrite.everything will be fine. just continue being a hypocrite.

lastly, im doing my assignment now and it has to be submitted by tmr which is technically in 2+hours time.so im gonna stop my trash talk already. sayonara & see you when you see me! 

Sad

yesterday my mum told me that my grandma fell down at my uncle's house and was hospitalised. she had fallen down quite a few times recently and the most recent fell was the most serious. she had to go to the hospital for stitches on the mouth because my doctor cousin couldnt stop the bleeding. i was quite upset when i heard about this. today i went to my uncle's house with my mum to pick my grandma. her upper lip is very swollen and purplish while her eyes are also bruised. i guess its because the blood is dispersing. i was suddenly overwhelmed with guilt and sadness. i had ignored her for a long time and i didnt realise she had gotten so old and frail. she used to annoy me alot cos she will open the door and peek into the room. i always think its very rude. i didnt realise that she had stopped doing that for some time. & i dont know how long it had been since she last peeked into my room.
just awhile ago, i went to brush my teeth and wash my face. i noticed that she was in the toilet so i turned on the corridor light for her in case she needed it. after 10-15mins of washing up, i came out and noticed that she was still in the toilet so i went to knock on the door. i called her several times and she didnt answer. i got frightened cos i thought the worst had happened. luckily,after a while,she answered and told me she had fallen down. i woke my parents up and they helped her up. after they went back to sleep, i went to my grandma and told her to shout for me if she falls again. i can hear her from my study room so i can help her. her legs are very weak now and she trembles even when she uses the walking aid. i feel very sad just looking at it. my uncle told me that she fell down today morning as well and its the fifth time she fell this year. tonight's the sixth time. i have been so mean to her in the past. although she isnt the nicest grandma on earth, she doesnt deserve for everyone in my family to treat her this way. from the look of it, it seems like she doesnt have alot of time. i just want to be nice to her from now on. i will talk to her nicely and show her more concern.
i feel so sad.im such a bad person.


baby, i was very upset yesterday when you said you couldnt pick me up bcos it was very far away. initially i thought you might be kidding &you will definitely pick me up. you will never let me travel alone to purdue. but after that, i realised that you were serious. you dont understand my fear when i said im scared of travelling alone. im scared of doing the transit and missing my flights. & when u wanted me to travel alone from the airport to purdue, i was angry. im really frightened. i dont know the directions and by the time i arrive at the domestic airport, it would have been 8plus pm.i reckon its a long journey from the airport to the university. what if i get the wrong way and end up somewhere else? how do i find you? i will be travelling 30hours to meet you. why cant you travel 2hours to pick me up? how can 2hours of travelling be compared to 30hours of flight alone? you said you will always protect me. where will you be when i need you most? why arent you worried

busy busy!

i used conditioner on my hair last night & now its silky smooth :D 

went for cheerleading training yesterday & i felt so happy to be able to execute my b-toss toe-touch.whee! the adrenaline rush and exhilaration cannot be described with mere words!! i was so so so happy! now im trying to overcome my fear for b-toss twist next time

skipped school today and woke up at 1pm.went to wash up and i saw you online on skype.you didnt pick up and after that i checked whatsapp & realised that you went offline at 1.15pm :( im gonna do abit of revision and go for tuition.

bring your tripod out when you take pictures! dont rely on others! 

sayonara i love you!

ugly faces for you

while u're studying

i think im quite disciplined. i woke up very early for the past week & the latest was today at 10am.but i had three back to back tuitions. 11am-1pm,2-4pm & 5-8pm.what do you think of your powerful girlfriend?

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im really quite busy these days. let me update you on my schedule

Monday- class from 1030am-830pm with only 1hr break from 1.30-2.30pm

Tuesday- no class! so i intend to study,gym abit and then go for tuition from 6-8pm(amk condo)

Wednesday- class from 12.30-2.30pm. tuition at hougang from 4.30-5.30(sec2),5.30-7pm(sec4 private candidate) & lastly 8-10pm (bartley,sec 4 cedar girl)

Thursday-class from 10.30-12.30pm followed by tuition from 4-6pm (amk) & another student 8.30-10pm (8th floor)

Friday-MY BEST DAY OF THE WEEK! no class and no students at the moment :)) i should be keeping it that way so i have some time to rest and study before the crazy weekends arrive

Saturday-10am-1.30pm (amk condo) & 4-6pm(serangoon condo)

Sunday-10-11.30am (8th floor), 2-4pm (amk), 5-7pm (yang yang)

actually i have one more sengkang student that is supposed to be scheduled on monday but bcos of my elective, i have to find another slot and put her in.im kinda full already so i dont know what to do. :(

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so now you can stop asking me why i never go out

im keeping myself busy to save money,make full use of my free time as well as becoming a better person.

im so happy bcos im coping well with all the tuitions. its quite tiring and i dont know if it will get worse when the semester really becomes harsh but i wont give up. i will show you then i can achieve alot and become very independent & disciplined

you are going to be so proud of me!!! :D

as of now, i just need to start studying & everything will be going as planned! 

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bcos of the time difference, i hardly get a chance to talk to you properly. this might get worse when you start your classes. i will tell you everything here so when im sleeping & ure awake, you can read everything

oh! im gonna celebrate my birthday with the girls on 31st august friday. we are going to have dinner at eno oka! the shabu shabu place! christie and i are also going out on the 30th of aug. she wanna bring me to a closed event at butterfactory but i wanna skype with you on my birthday. hmm..maybe ill tell her to celebrate my birthday on another day.i want my birthdays to be with you.

its gonna be 1230! your class should be ending! ill be waiting for your whatsapp

i love you